I've come to a moment of truth and I'm stuck. Surely, I am going to college, however, the world is telling me that it might not be worth it. I can't find anything whatsoever on my scholarships and grants. I can't seem to make people understand that it's a lot harder than they may think to get into college. If only I was like most of the other students from my class and had supportive parents that wanted me to go to college. Hell, even the colleges around here are being neglecting about me attending their classes. I don't know if I'm fit for college. I'd probably be better off not going and just tell those stupid schools "Up yours!" because they obviously don't want me since I'M BROKE! Instead, (if I have to, anyway)I might invest into a business and hold my rightful place as an artist and just use what I have. If I want to learn to do more I can learn it on my own. I don't need some stupid, and pompous, peice of paper that only shows people that you spent a shit-load of money on classes for--what? If I took classes saying that I am a professional and knowledgable artist, then what happened to some of the first artists who didn't have any schools to attend for their talent and passion? It's like, you have to subject to the bandwagon and pay too much to be noticed. Well, a person can't get anywhere if they don't work and they can't get to work without any money. It happens, you know? I've got some people who are trying to get me into college, but it seems they will only do this if I go back out with a certain 'someone' that I had left me for so many others so many times. It's like I will have to give up my entire connection to my parents and my present boyfriend to do anything. For myself? No. Never for myself, it's for the people that don't think I am contempt in a place that doesn't allow me special treatment to show that I have the capability to be a spoilt brat. Instead, I'd love to be left alone and let me figure shit out on my own like the adult I legally am, now.